Secret Shame
| "Her scream was full of
agony This deed was not mine. Yet the knowledge of it I must bear for all time. This shame I feel deep inside I have no choice but to continue to hide. It's not something I have done, nor I have said. Nevertheless I take this pain every night to my bed. I can see the horrified look upon your sweet gentle face. Your wonderous love that would turn to hate, fear and outrage. No longer when you look at me will your eyes swim with laughter. For I can imagine the beginning of dark stormy clouds roaming their vast chocolate depths forever after. His prejudices are not my own nor will I ever condone. I looked up to him with awe and pride. But knowing what I now know, in you this time I cannot confide. My veins now flow furiously with anger. And I look at myself and see that I've become this stranger. I feel so lost, my world's no longer safe and sound. My soul is shattered and my trust now tattered. This man who with a child's innocence I adored, never would I have guessed this secret in his past would leave me so abhorred. I love you with all of my heart and would protect you to my death. That is why of this secret, to you, I will never utter a breath. Written & Copyrighted by Jesslan |